The Verge of Falling

[need2hunt]

When it all came together we were in Amsterdam. I just really became keenly and uncomfortably aware of how umm... you know, you think your getting somewhere, you think your growing as a christian, that kind of thing and all of a sudden your in a situation where you go ???

I am just as susceptible as I was when I was 16, to a lot of things... and sometimes we can be really hard on ourselves about that. Well Beaker and I where talking in a train station about the whole thing... where kinda where we were and where we wanted to be, and we got into some pretty explicit detail about the nature of our temptations and of those struggles... and this guy leans over, and we're in Germany right, and so we're assuming that no one is going to be interested enough in what we had to say to actually bother to to translate and listen. But this guy leans over, the only other guy in there, and he asks me "Excuse me, Are you Rich Mullins?" So I had to think back over my conversation to see if I was or not, and decided that I must be - whether or not I like who I am, that is who I am.

Once again it's back to the Ragamuffin thing. The realization that people are going to judge you, and there I think are people who look for excuses to condemn you and look for excuses to say bad things about you. But God doesn't look for those kind of excuses. And I think the conclusion of that for me was that I think I would rather live on the verge of falling and let my security be in the all sufficiency of the grace of God, than to live in some kind of pietistic illusion of morel excellence - not that I don't want to be morally excellent, but my faith is not in the idea that I am more moral than anybody else, my faith is in the idea that God and his love, are greater than whatever sins we commit.

- Rich Mullins, 1955-1997

[buckee]

I can really relate to this. imperfection sure has a way of keeping you humble.